Sometimes the love is too infinite for words.

The Hunted. The Prey. THe lost. Remember.......

Remember when you were the hunted

Remember how I swallowed you in

Remember the rewards shimmering on the floor

Off the plastic chandelier

Remember when I saw you in orbit

Remember when I pulled you back in

Remember looking on blinking into the dawn

Thinking how this will never end

Surrounded

Let's romanticize our beloved memories

Surrounded

Let's demonize our softest injuries

Surrounded

Can we get behind distortion and liberties

Surrounded

We're surrounded, spiraling

Remember when I played assassin

Remember when my joking turned grim

Remember how we thought if we followed the dots

It would stop all the accidents

Remember when you broke my halo

Remember how I tied your wings in

Remember how we slipped all the lies we equipped

Just to bring back the goods again

Surrounded

Let's romanticize our beloved memories

Surrounded

Let's demonize our softest injuries

Surrounded

Can we get behind distortion and liberties

Surrounded

We're surrounded, spiraling

Is it perfect in our little hell

Are you dancing or stumbling beside me

Well this might not be

We'll just wait and see

So now that we've stopped hearing echoes

And now that the replay wore thin

Just remember who held you, remember who held you

Remember who held you, remember who held you

Surrounded

Let's romanticize our beloved memories

Surrounded

Let's demonize our softest injuries

Surrounded

Can we get behind distortion and liberties

Surrounded We're surrounded, spiraling

Is it perfect in our little hell

muddy boots-blood splatter

Muddy boots
soiled heart
blood splatter
infallable tear
Dying leaves
shrunken soul
black teeth
seconds stop
still wind

Fantasy?

You make me wannnna uhh uhh uhh uhhhhhh
dance, sing, fuck, explore, smoke, drink, gimme water
open road, full tank, green, orange, red, sign up ahead
smile baby we on the road to nowhere fast
Aint it grand?

TRUST

I don't trust.
Why not? Is it something I fear? Can I sense when the lie comes out. So easily blown off. Maybe it's just the wrong people in my life. I try to make shit work, but in the end, it's the same ol shit. Or it's the simple fact that if I trust and begin to be happy, they will let me down. Toss me away. I am hurt. Is it really a privilage to talk with you? Could you not just call me? How come I don't believe that it's someone's friend. She is his best friend and she is bringing a friend. Who you say is not attractive. Does it really matter? We dont have to see each other. You could just pick up the phone. But, that would be toooo easy. And take you away from your company. Boo hoo.
Fuck.
I don't trust.

I am a fucking gullible MORON!

...........

Wonder Love

I found this picture again. I love this picture. I can see his dimple and the total wonder of his face. Not just the sweet smile. There's the boy with the gift of animals. He can feel a space and a beings mood almost instantly.

This was taken last December in California at Maggie's. I cannot believe it's been almost a year. He is so young looking here. So big. However, in this photo I see the essence of my child. The whole being and the utter love I have for this wonder. I get to witness this person everyday.

Lights go out and I can't be saved

Tides that I tried to swim against

You've put me down upon my knees

Oh I beg, I beg and please, singin'Come out of things unsaid

Shoot, an apple off my head.

And theTrouble that cant be named

The tiger's waiting to be tamed singin'

You are

Youare

Confusion never stops

Closing walls and ticking clocks

Gonna come back and take you home

I could not stop but you now know, singin'

Come out upon my seas,

Curse missed opportunities

Am I a part of the cure

Or am I part of the disease, singin

'You are, you are

You are, you are

You are, you are

Nothing else compares.

Oh, no nothing else compares

Oh, no nothing else compares

You are

You are

Home, home where I wanted to go

Home, home where I wanted to go

Home, home where I wanted to go

Home, home where I wanted to go

Right Where it Belongs

Books rock my world

Just a *few* books around my place :D

Today my son and I went to second hand stores. He usually balks because I spend wayyyy too much time looking at books! However, today he picked out two books!! Amazing, really. We also hit the library and he checked out a bunch of graphic novels to take home. Mouth open.....he has yet to understand my passion regarding books. He enjoys comics and graphic novels and I am gonna just go with the flow....................

I discovered a new author, Keith Donohue. I checked out his book, "The Stolen Child" about a child who hides in a hollow tree and is kidnapped by changelings, wild children who don't age and live in the darkness.............fantasy genre of course.

I was also taken by a graphic novel I had to read. "Mad Hatter III: Through the Looking Glass" by Liz Cavalier. Don't know too much about it, interesting art tho............

I have been a bit stressed lately and have not been reading. WHAT? My mind wondering off to other areas of my life, not the book at hand. Reading has always been my solace and I am again realizing why............

Peace.

Feeling restless

For a Friday Laugh :P

Ohh my. Ya, I just needed a chuckle today~ Happy Friday!

Well Fuckity fuck fuck ;)

Yes, I admit it. I love a good curse word. Always have I must say. Not all the time, but the f bomb might just slip out occasionally. Hehe. I remember one time my best friend and I during our high school years had a cussin incident. Just happened to be with the cops. Did not spy them. They overheard us I assume because they accused us of not being very lady like. Guilty. Shrug. I also witnessed my son at the ripe age of two, drop his cup and say, "ohh shit" like it was nothin. I have tried to curb my usage of said words. Sometimes I regress, for shame!!!

However, I do enjoy how fuck, motherfucker, and what the hell, roll off my tongue at times. Yes, yes, I do.

I Felt Like Things Would Be Alright

one pic to make you smile

Raspberry Pickin With My Son, and Niece & Nephew from Cali

The Outside Theatre

Waitin for the show

silly boy

movie and popcorn please Yay!

Way cool Saturday nights in the summer!!!

I miss drive-ins, but this is pretty good.

ya, thats him

you go on yer Ten site

your facebook to say hi to the gurlzzz

but how bout me>no big surprise

this coexist, love, peace, understanding talk

does not extend to me.

So how do you go about your day

forgetting one that you sooooo

admired

gave affection

wanted to wake up with

Does the pain ever seep through

or do you just lay your head down and

dream of

me?

I am trying

Its so difficult when people decide to stop talking to you. When they give you no reason why. After months of affection and friendship. They would rather be with others that have no affiliation at all with what they think. Immature. Hell Yeah! haha. Inside joke. Makes me wonder what is said regarding me and my search for answers. Being ignored is not attractive on me. I am a seeker of truth. Too bad the one who can give it hides away. Make sure you tell them the whole story now. It was never one-sided. I guess kind women who are trustworthy and loyal just dont do it for you. Take the pain away. Take the tears. Take the stream of words that came from you.........................did it make you run?

Showed him and I told him how he struck me but I'm Fucked up now.........

Just change the "she" to a "he" and that's how I feel

There must be somethingIn the way I feel

That she don't want me to feel

The stare she bares cut me

I don't care

You see so what if I bleed

I could never change

Just what I feel

My face will never show

What is not real

A mountain never seems to have

The need to speak

A look that shares so many seek

The sweetest feeling

I got from youThe things

I said to you were true

I could never change

Just what I feel

My face will never show

What is not real

I could have lied I'm such a fool

My eyes could never never never

Keep their cool

Showed her and I told her how

She struck me but I'm fucked up now

But now she's gone yes she's gone away

A soulful song

That would not stay

You see she hides 'cause she is scared

But I don't care

I won't be spared

I could have lied I'm such a fool

My eyes could never never never

Keep their cool

Showed her and I told her how

She struck me but I'm fucked up now

I could have lied I'm such a fool

My eyes could never never never

Keep their cool

Showed her and I told her how

She struck me but I'm fucked up now

Heartbreak is a bitch

All you have to do is make it right.

me myself and I

single mama
baking crazy
2 vw buses, 2 beatles
mutter to myself
empathetic
very sensitive
singing
swimming
yosemite fire
madrid bomb
tongue tacos
bites nails
collect old keys
steampunk
Mexico
southwest, west, PNW, south
2 pain disorders
loyal
love cartoons
read
social justice
peace
red
survivor
trickster

Needs

"I crave you mouth, your voice, your hair.
Silent and starving, I prowl through the streets.
Bread does not nourish me, dawn disrupts me, all day
I hunt for the liquid measure of your steps.

I hunger for your sleek laugh,
your hands the color of a savage harvest,
hunger for the pale stones of your fingernails,
I want to eat your skin like a whole almond.

I want to eat the sunbeam flaring in your lovely body,
the sovereign nose of your arrogant face,
I want to eat the fleeting shade of your lashes,

and I pace around hungry, sniffing the twilight,
hunting for you, for your hot heart,
Like a puma in the barrens of Quitratue."
~Pablo Neruda

boom boom

boom boom
my heart
boom boom
my tears
boom boom
my ache
boom boom
my breath
boom boom
my fall

why not?Me?

cant you see what these dates do to my heart
summer fun with a fling i am not invited to participate
what happened to your affection
your warmness, your soul
did it fly away when you were sleeping
or was it snatched in the middle of the night while the
curtains fluttered.

Farmer's Market Part 2!! Woof.

"I've seen a look in dogs' eyes, a quickly vanishing look of amazed contempt, and I am convinced that basically dogs think humans are nuts." - John Steinbeck

If you can't decide between a Shepherd, a Setter or a Poodle, get them all ... adopt a mutt!" - ASPCA

Snif snif snif.................is that cookies and muffins I smell?

"He is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog. You are his life, his love, his leader. He will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart. You owe it to him to be worthy of such devotion." - Unknown

~ Animals show us the way~

"I once decided not to date a guy because he wasn't excited to meet my dog. I mean, this was like not wanting to meet my mother." - Bonnie Schacter, Founder of the Single Pet Owner's Society Singles Group

To look into a dog's eyes, is to see the soul

"Whoever said you can't buy happiness forgot little puppies." - Gene Hill


I adore dogs. I miss my right hand man Willow everyday......................